She Pretends...

SAD NEWS...Kasey did not show she was pregnant and Sadie....well read on about Sadie and her litter....(from my other website about life and my story)

SHE PRETENDS....
Sadie, my dog, lays in a pillow by my feet.  We had her bred a couple months ago.  She is my walking companion and whines like she may just die if she cannot be near me when I am home.  I have watched her through this pregnancy and described her as "needy" during the past 2 months.  As the days have drawn near for her to have pups, I was concerned that she was not that large.  Maybe she will have 2 or 3,...maybe up to 5.   

Then she started to nest.  She lay in her bed with several plastic toys.  I noticed her caring for them and also noticed she seemed to be readying for the pups by developing milk.  Her due date was the 28th.  That day came and went without any pups.   

She still lays in her bed and cuddles up with her toys, treating them as if they are real live pups.  She licks them and snuggles them. And if I take them and put them up she comes over and carefully places them in her mouth to bring them back to her bed and care for them.

She pretends.   She is a very very good mother. That is clear and she so longs for a litter than never came that she has created counterfeit pups to bond with.

There are so many analogies in this.  But, the one that sticks out to me is that she is like me...like you...like each of us...  We all LONG for what we were meant to be...what we were meant to do...  WE were made for a bond with the ONE who made us and we prepare for HIM and feel the birth pains of what is not yet happened. We have not seen HIM face to face yet and the time has not yet come.  And sometimes in our longing for things to be what they are not yet....we too, pretend.  We pretend that we have arrived.  We pretend that things are as they should be.  The more dangerous thing for us is that if we will not wait and work and long for and hunger after HIM...sometimes we find replacements.  We are just as capable of bonding to the things HE made as my Sadie is able to bond with these false plastic toys.  We may even call them "precious" like Gollum did in "LORD of the the RINGS"  If someone tries to pry these counterfeits of our attention from us, we grip them tighter and whine like Sadie does.

But, there is only ONE real GOD.  NONE like HIM.  Our longing for HIM and for what is not yet complete is not just normal but a part of the fact that we were made for more than the pretend false bonds we have with the created stuff rather than the CREATOR.  We make pretend replacements in our work, our play, our ministries, our sports, our music, our talents, our  intellect, our friends, our parents, our need to be important and right...and so many other things.  

But, the REAL thing we were made for is an honest relationship with HIM that admits that we long for HIM, and in our impatience, we try to find another way.... so we pretend sometimes.  We can be filled and fulfilled but ONLY by HIM and what HE created us to do and be..like Sadie who is an excellent mother and longs for that litter.  All other things are plastic toys.  We are filled by HIM and everything good flows from that spring.  I don't want to pretend that the things and people I love are the purpose of this life....they are not...I love them...but HE is the true Purpose.  For in HIM and through HIM and by HIM all things are made and hold together.  I was meant for HIS purposes and in my impatience I don't want to accept anything less.   

Sadie will move past her plastic toys and have a litter later this summer or fall.  She is just showing what she longs for and was made for.